i'm gestating.not physiologically. but physically mentally emotionally, and spiritually.
after five or so months in this practice i've done forty births.
in all 112.
documented. somewhere around seventy or eighty.
my *numbers* are coming together. i'm unlikely to succeed in making the canadian requirements. 30 primary continuity of care. i might be close. i don't know. i stress about this. panic attacks.
in may it will be ten months and i'm due to finish this preceptorship.
i have no idea what happens next. applying to bridging programs. applying to NARM. work permits.
i have to go through this process.
there is no fast >> forward.
i'm gestating an unknown.