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Thursday, January 5, 2012

four days of yoga

so one of my resolutions was to yoga.
what does that mean?
for the last four days i have gone to my mat (actually i don't have a mat, just practicing on the carpet). 
i haven't had a dedicated yoga practice in somewhere in the range of three years. seriously.
my body hurts. i have chronic lower back pain. i look at my body and i see how it has changed 
i'm tired. i'm bitter. have battled depression. i'm judgmental. i'm insecure. i'm self-deprecating to the point where i am limiting my opportunities.  
i'm not that horrible. i've made it through my blue period. that at least i've done. 
i'm putting my worst foot forward.
but it's a truth.
it's part of me.
and it's time to turn that around.
strengthen my core, heal my back. 
lengthen and strengthen my muscles and stop the aches and pains. 
tone and shed excess fat and feel better about myself.
i love my curves. but there is a difference between curves and puckering. 
2012 is a new year.
it has started with heightened motivation and inspiration. 
2011 ended with a plague lifting and a load of changes that has brought about a clean slate. 
i'm challenging myself. committing to myself. my teacher once said. everyday step onto your mat. even if you do nothing. step on to your mat. 
so i have stepped onto my mat. and for four days i have lengthened and strengthened and moved my body in ways i haven't consistently for so long. and it feels so good. 
four days of yoga and counting. 


  1. i have missed a few days and then returned again. even if i can get it together to do a half dozen sun salutations i'm being gentle on myself. better to do some than none at all.

    you should renew my/our subscription to yoga today. it expires on the 19th.