this semester i have two professional issues classes: business and responsibilities. lab work. pharmacology. well-woman. skills IV. plus a few seminars. and my independent research class.
creating a business plan for school is causing me to think about the future.
this is stressing me out.
i was so focused on staying in the present for so long because the future, what i am going to do, where i am going to go is so up in the air. i have no singular attachment. i feel as though i have no home, but know i could make one anywhere.
i left myself open to options. to be free to see where life took me.
i'm contemplating staying in WA. this, with having to write a business plan for school is forcing me to analyze what this actually would look like, how it could be feasible. choosing a state that has no clear route for licensing midwives trained outside of their approved schools (N=1). with midwives currently waiting with their applications, piled with others, for any sort of due process.
it will take years for me to get licensed in WA after i finish school. there are groups out there that are trying to work on a way to get midwives licensed in the state, midwives trained outside the all holy bastyr/SMS system. there are two groups. philosophically opposed with each other vying for the same purpose.
hopefully it will be sorted out by the time i finish school. how long would such a bureaucratic process take to sort out?
this is all being counterproductive to my practice of staying in the present. this is having an unhealthy side effect.
choosing to immigrate to another country isn't an easy process. particularly when i would be giving up socialised health care. but it's worth it, right? it's good.