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Saturday, February 8, 2014

one week left, three weeks to go.

saturday night. 8pm. and i'm ready for bed. 

one week left of my clerkship and i'm filing my application for a restricted licence to practice midwifery in saskatchewan. 

still can't believe that i am really moving back to the province, but at every turn, the decision is reinforced that it is the right one.

i feel at home.

meeting people in clinic that i went to school with 20 years ago, and i get to be their midwife! couldn't ask for anything more. 

working in a healthcare system that i wish everyone had access to, working to help develop midwifery here, working to create a model for implementing midwifery and birth back into small rural communities. this all feels right. 

so i'm making my application and i've taken a job. i've found a place to live and i start in three weeks. 

in three weeks? 

is this real? 

i'm not announcing where it is publicly until i'm in the building. i don't know. i suppose i'm in such denial that this is my new reality. 

i'm afraid that is will burn to ash before i can really touch it. taste it. smell it. live it. 


what will be, will be. 

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